Which is worse?

Would you rather:
have your heart broken

or

your ego hurt?

It's finally come to me, what has made this past year so difficult. The emotions that made me dread being dumped ever again. After almost a year of searching for truth and closure (read the December entries), I realized that I couldn't get over the whole matter because my ego was hurt. I was over the heartbroken deal, and I don't really get heartbroken to begin with. So it's not him. He's not everything. There, done. But remind me of how stupid something is, then I will have a hard time getting over it. It's very difficult for me to like myself, even love myself once I feel like I'm stupid. I can't live with stupid. So what if so many other guys are interested, I wouldn't like me at the moment. Long story short, the ego crush is debilitating for me.