Afraid to lose my loneliness

At first I found it ridiculous that Father Rolheiser wrote about cultivating loneliness, but after watching an episode of House and thinking about my own loneliness, I realized that it had become a part of me. I am afraid that I'll become a completely different person should I decide to share my life, my whole self. It's obvious how romance changes people, makes them so happy. Of course I want happiness like most other people, but happiness also comes from knowing thyself and being able to reach out to others.

Maybe my fear is justified, maybe it isn't. But I can always come back to it.