Deja Vu and bad timing
How does one know if they're making the same mistakes of their last tryst? And what kinds of actions or lack thereof constitute a lack of interest?
I don't know what to believe, but people tend to pull out of a budding whatever if it reminds them too much of their most recent failed relationship/tryst. I hate to admit that I'm feeling that way too. Can I really be sure of myself that I learned my lesson and am making the right choices, easily navigating myself through life?
I'm afraid of getting too attached, and mistaking my enthusiasm as a response to something horrible going on in my life. I really would like to believe that I know what I'm getting into, and that my actions reflect someone who isn't exactly looking for the man to spend the rest of her life with yet. This is something I feel I can't afford to just allow to happen, because if I want to get out unscathed, I must be conscientious of what I want.
Okay, done with my worries. So I got used to this zero tolerance policy for detecting another's lack of interest in me, and I'm wondering just how harsh it is. If I had such standards placed on me, I'd probably crack. Imagine: she's just not that into you if she's not calling you. True, girls are definitely bolder when they're in love, but if they don't have their cell with them (which is exactly what happened to me), then guilt looms. Imagine again: she's just not that into you if she's not asking you out. Personally, when did it ever bloom into a decent relationship when the girls did the asking out? Even if he says yes, he would eventually most likely add the "but I just got out of a relationship" or "but I might still want my ex back" or "but I just really want to find myself." That's probably why he's not asking anybody out. And that's why I don't ask anybody out either. Is he just not that into me? Perhaps. Doesn't mean he's not into me at all, or vice versa.
Please, I beg the cosmos that somehow this guy I speak of will understand that I do want a tryst with him, and that I will not say no.
I don't know what to believe, but people tend to pull out of a budding whatever if it reminds them too much of their most recent failed relationship/tryst. I hate to admit that I'm feeling that way too. Can I really be sure of myself that I learned my lesson and am making the right choices, easily navigating myself through life?
I'm afraid of getting too attached, and mistaking my enthusiasm as a response to something horrible going on in my life. I really would like to believe that I know what I'm getting into, and that my actions reflect someone who isn't exactly looking for the man to spend the rest of her life with yet. This is something I feel I can't afford to just allow to happen, because if I want to get out unscathed, I must be conscientious of what I want.
Okay, done with my worries. So I got used to this zero tolerance policy for detecting another's lack of interest in me, and I'm wondering just how harsh it is. If I had such standards placed on me, I'd probably crack. Imagine: she's just not that into you if she's not calling you. True, girls are definitely bolder when they're in love, but if they don't have their cell with them (which is exactly what happened to me), then guilt looms. Imagine again: she's just not that into you if she's not asking you out. Personally, when did it ever bloom into a decent relationship when the girls did the asking out? Even if he says yes, he would eventually most likely add the "but I just got out of a relationship" or "but I might still want my ex back" or "but I just really want to find myself." That's probably why he's not asking anybody out. And that's why I don't ask anybody out either. Is he just not that into me? Perhaps. Doesn't mean he's not into me at all, or vice versa.
Please, I beg the cosmos that somehow this guy I speak of will understand that I do want a tryst with him, and that I will not say no.
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