My Karmic Report

Read this: North Node of the Moon in Aries
You tend always to be in a relationship, or if you're single for a period of time, you are quite conscious of that fact and spend a significant amount of time looking for and wishing you could find a mate. You do not like to be alone; you prefer to spend time with people -- and yet you can grow irritated easily when you feel overwhelmed by the attentions of a lover. You may notice a pattern in your romantic relationships in which you keep getting involved with lovers who push you to make decisions, even though doing so can make you quite uncomfortable. You like things to be harmonious and easy and you tend to avoid conflict. If you notice a pattern of getting into relationships that are characterized in some way by conflict, relationships that have seemed more difficult than they should have been, it may be that you need to examine your own fears to find the source of your attraction to such influences. It is likely that in a prior life, you were submissive in your relationships and allowed your mate to make all the important decisions -- perhaps with disastrous effects, at least to your sense of self. You were able to attract lovers simply by being your charming, attractive self -- and so you neglected your other attributes, such as kindness and intelligence, which last long after beauty fades.

I wholly agree with the part about my internal conflict. I want to be close, but I need to be free. But maybe for now I can be happy by saying that I'm single by choice.